I MISS MY GIRL

This has been the kind of day I like to have.  I went to the doctor to find out I am not dying.  Yeah me!  Just normal, old, growing old, stuff.  Then I came home and cleaned.  That's it.  It was great! Isn't that absurd?  I have been running so much lately that once in a while it's nice to stay home and actually accomplish something.  I can go to bed tonight and not feel all the " I should'ves".  And today was another unusually cool day in TN.  It was beautiful!  

We put our 17 yo on a plane to Nevada this past Saturday.  She flew out to see her Nana.  I think she is having a great time.  I say "think" because she really hasn't called me.  She has called Jeff  once or twice.  Today she they were in San Francisco. She said they were going to some restaurant where they had .....seals?  Then they were riding these things.  Jeff said " you mean a trolley?"  She said "No. These are on a track and in the road."  Jeff-" Thats a trolley"  Sus-"Thats not what they called them." Whatever. lol  Then I think her second call was to see if he cared if she got her nose pierced "because there a shop here that do noses." Jeff promptly told her that "YES" he did care.  That girl.  Gotta love her.  I miss her.  

 

IT'S BEEN TO LONG

I am constantly looking at my friends blogs and feeling shameful that mine has sat dormant for so long.  But I have decided that I do this blog as a memory of things for me.  And I guess that I haven't wanted to remember much lately.  What I am realizing is that it is selfish of me.  I need to realize that others may be carrying a load like mine and might be encouraged to know that others are too.  This may seem silly to many but we have a 17 year old who is trying to declare her independence.  Now that may not seem like suffering and probably is mostly normal, but her mother is a control freak and has trouble trusting God.  Therefore, this mother (me) has trouble letting go.  I know in my head God will and is taking care of things but I have this addiction to step in and control.  I know and you know suffering is a part of this world but it doesn't make it any easier.  I think it only becomes easier if you find others who are willing to share their ups and downs.  So maybe no one will read this and maybe someone will. And that someone will be encouraged.  I hope so.  If you really want to be encouraged, you should read my friends blog,  www.dailycopingskills.blogspot.com.  She has  some great stuff  about coping with suffering.

Now on to the farm.  Olivia began horseback riding lessons.  Of course so did the horse since she has never been trained.  But they are both doing great.  My oldest got on a plane this morning to go to Nevada.  She went to visit Nana for the week. My second oldest got a job babysitting a very active three year old.  This is going to be a great learning experience for her.  And the younger two are just enjoying the summer. My new chickens have not started laying yet but they should start next month.  I am hoping to sell the eggs. Our little nubian had babies about 2 weeks ago.  They are both boys. Sweet.  So Cute.  I am working on a stanchion this weekend.  Wish me luck on the milking.  I have never done this before. We plan on drinking the milk, making cheese, and possibly soap.  Thats the plan anyways.